Behind the Scenes of My New Book, ‘She Waited For Me’

It’s been slow going, but book two is in the works. Here is a behind the scenes look at my possible introduction. Right now, I’m just writing, not worrying about the way it all comes together. There are certainly typos, for sure. Not paying attention to that either. Thanks for reading.

Introduction

Never say never. Really. It’s not possible for something to never happen. People will argue until their faces are blue against this point. But I know this. Never, never happens.

This was true when I shocked myself with an instant change of heart in the Fall of 2010. Jeff and I had been married only since May of that year and we were already talking to a fertility specialist. We were in our early forties and pretty darn sure nature wouldn’t take its course all that easily. We had yet to find out how difficult it would be.

For years, to myself, family, friends, and other not-so-potential husbands, I had stuck to my standard line. I will never go through fertility. Why would I spend money to make a child? Why would I pump my body with hormones? Why would I use a petri dish to create a child when there are millions of children out there who need parents? Why not just find one who’s already here looking for love, a home, a family? No. We will adopt. End of story.

My husband had one simple thing to say and that was it. My never turned into okay, I’ll do it. Just like that. He wanted a child from him. From his DNA. He wanted a child to look like him. He knew that my reach for adoption would have been the world! No color, race, ethnicity was off the table. But that wasn’t for him. And I respected that. In just a moment, my adamant desire was relinquished and we were heading into fertility testing.

Forever etched into my mind is the symbol at the bottom of my long list of tests, numbers, and foreign vocabulary.

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Do you see what that says? Less than 1%. These were our chances for conceiving a baby through natural methods. Ha! It was laughable; however, I don’t recall laughing. We certainly knew it would be low, but this was ridiculous! What the hell do we do now?

We look at the options. And we look at them from the least to the most invasive. All the least invasive were skipped over quickly. My eggs were goners. I was 42. No shocker there. So, trying to pump my body with medication to get my eggs to wake up and do their job was futile. Again, we were given the percentages and they sucked. In addition, Jeff’s sperm count was inconsistent. Not bad. Not really the problem at hand. Just not steady enough to pick up the slack.

Our very best chance was In Vitro Fertilization with a Donor Egg. And even with that, our chance for conceiving was only 60%. But by the time we went through all our other options, ranging from 20%-50%, this one was looking damn good! It was going to cost us about $15,000. It was going to involve a great deal of time, patience, pain, and emotional upheaval. It would be the biggest and most daunting adventure of our lives. But it would work. I knew it would.  That certainty was my light at the end of the tunnel.

And Emma Grace is the light of our lives.

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Emma at about 4 months. One of my very favorite photos.

 

Show Some Love to Book One

Show some love to book one with me, as I mentally prepare to begin book two on March 1st. In So Many Words is my baby, will always be my virgin step into ‘author-dom’ and has had exactly the response I hoped for.

So, here, with five days until my fingers hit the keyboard for another deep, introspective, and frankly, a bit scary ride, thank you to book one, the people who read it, and the impact it has had on friends, family, and complete strangers.

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The task ahead is daunting, but so exciting. Book one churned up quite the array of emotions. Book two has the potential to take me back to places which will make me stop in my tracks and feel a pit in my stomach. But the purpose behind sharing these things will far outweigh the fear.

Reading In So Many Words is not a necessary prerequisite to reading She Waited for Me when it comes out later this year, but it would be helpful. You can purchase it on this website under my Author tab above or on Amazon. If you read it, I would greatly appreciate a review on Amazon and/or this site.

 

Always connect.

Namaste.

 

 

Dreams Realized in Small, Yet Wonderful Ways

Dreams Realized in Small, Yet Wonderful Ways…

My first book, In So Many Words, was released on December 7th and I can’t believe the heart warming response received thus far. My sales are more than I imagined. My reviews and comments contain just the feedback I had hoped for. It has even reached beyond my little community into North Carolina, Nebraska, Minnesota, and Illinois. I am simply blown away and this is only the beginning!

You can buy my book here or on Amazon. Join in on the conversation.

A few stats:

Books sold via pre-sale and this website: 22

Books sold on Amazon: 11

Books given to stores to consider selling: 2

Books given as gifts or in exchange for a review: 14

Reviews on Amazon: 2

A great read…

A wonderfully woven tale of friendship, discovery and a journey towards motherhood. A great read for all but particularly if you find yourself at a crossroad of spirituality, growth and the human experience. Libby allows us in as she discovers the spiritual connections around her.  
I loved this book! It’s a quick read but packed with marvelous observations about friendship, becoming a mother and learning about life. Makes me want to try yoga.

 

So, there are 51 of my books out there in the world giving people inspiration, love, and a feeling of connection. Insert happy dance!

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Three of my contributing writers: MaryAnne, Donna, and Mary.

Some of the feedback:

From fellow mom: Hey girl..awesome book! Just finished…I wanted to read more…lol guess I’ll have to wait. Let me know about your link to site for review. I’ll start working on it. So happy, proud, and excited for u. 

From my Aunt: Libby, I thoroughly enjoyed your book. It was insightful and I keep thinking about what you wrote. An easy read, a quick read and an unforgettable work.

Check out Sonya’s Facebook Post.

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From fellow mom and friend, in reference to the page below:

Oh how I struggle with this. So glad you put it on paper for me to see it.

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Merry Christmas to Me! My Book is Beautiful!

Merry Christmas to me! My book, In So Many Words, which has been through so many trials and tribulations, is finally available just the way I want it!

What a learning experience this has been…patience, tolerance, assertiveness, confidence, clarity, forgiveness, professionalism, friendship, emotions, and first and foremost…how in the heck to self-publish a book! The key word in that phrase being SELF.

I can do it! I did it! And I will do it again!

Once you learn a lesson, it isn’t a guarantee that you won’t need to learn it again. Check out this excerpt from my book. A journal entry from almost 10 years ago. It says it all.

Journal Entry * January 2007

I am sure getting a lot of experience in being honest and protective of myself. I don’t really like it. I wonder when people are going to stop pushing me around. I suppose it will take some time for people to realize that they really don’t get anywhere by doing that and then they’ll stop. I still have to be firm, honest, and confident and stand up for myself. I hope I can do it without turning into a bitch.

The only difference now…I don’t think I really care if I’m a bitch, as long as it gets the job done.